KianAnn.com - Life is About Living Your Choices

I realised today why I haven’t been as profitable as I want to be in the businesses I am running. I am not putting enough heart into the business.

Getting someone to buy a product from you is not about “Oh, I want to make money.” Its about knowing that the product will really help the person.

Today I received an email at work, telling me that one of my colleagues has passed away due to cancer. I don’t know this colleague - we never met, we never chatted, but something struck me inside. I recall a workshop I have attended some time back, saying that cancer is very close to heart - 3 of 10 Singaporeans die of cancer.

I realise what an business profit driven a**hole I’ve been. To know you have something on hand that can help people live a better live, and yet not be promoting it - I think I’m really not doing what I am responsible to do.

I don’t wish to have ANYBODY close to me to suffer the same fate as my colleague. NOBODY. That is a decision I have made. I NEED to promote supplementation because I know it is essential.

Wow. I just attended a N21 business preview today at Suntec, and man, it was really one of the best previews I’ve attended so far! There was a change in the presentation slides, and everything was like *exactly the way it feels in my heart*.

Following that we continued on with a leaders meeting which was also AWESOME!

I’m so fired up man!

Since I started work 3 months ago, I haven’t really had the time for myself - to clear up my room and do housekeeping of everything I had like my computer files, and notes. Today, with a day of medical leave, I managed to at least know where things are put (it’ll probably take two weekends to finish clearing!) so that I can slowly take steps to clear out the mess.

I’ve heard from one of the N21 CDs that it is important to keep organised so that you can get your tasks done, but not let keeping organised be something that will take tonnes of time - I think that’s true and really need to change myself a little.

I used to be a real stinge when it comes to organising my room - everything has to be right where they need to be, but being busy really keeps me from spending time cleaning up. I just felt it has gone a little too much on the other end and it is affecting my productivity.

I like the security and confidence of knowing where I have put my things, and knowing that a hard drive crasy will not destroy my precious computer files.

Cleaning up is good.

I do! I’m having one now… and I just felt mine wasn’t blue - mine is horribly stinky black. My alarm went off at 7am, and I snoozed until 7:20am, and had to drag myself out of bed, wash up, iron my working attire, and get out of home before 7.50am.

Then I had to squeeze in that sardine packed MRT train for 40 minutes, travel to the city, rush through my breakfast and then rush up to my workplace to face people I don’t particularly like to face on a sleepy Monday morning.

Get this right (and I won’t try to be diplomatic here)… THIS FEELING TOTALLY STINKS! I hate it! I hate my job. I hate doing this today, and I don’t want to do this for 40 years to come!

I will remember this feeling - to propel me forward and build my N21 business! 1 year from now, I will be sleeping LATE on Mondays.

My ticker has started. Has yours?

Normally, people are exceptionally happy on Friday, work people - I mean. Afterall, what’s coming is a weekend where they can relax and sleep in bed.

But this Friday, I’m not… because I just realized that over the busy past few days, I haven’t got any results. I’ve not attained my goals for the week! So, this weekend I’ll have to work extra hard.

Yikes.

Oh well, let’s learn from this week. Getting less sleep for the whole of next week (to catch up on my progressive goals) is still better than having to drag myself to work for the rest of my life!

Talking about sleep - this is something I need to address. I really need to change my home working environment a bit, so I don’t go into “get a nap first” mentality every night. Hate it. My naps always go on for 5 hours. Argh!

For the past two days since the session with my business mentor, I really spent time just listening to happy music and dreaming more, and to be frank, I am really fascinated at the miracles that turned up in front of my face.

Is there science in this? I am not sure, but that thing about The Secret really works - the law of attraction. Your world will feel different to you when you walk out smiling and thinking of the great things in life, as opposed to the unhappy worries.

Because of this, I can also feel that the little voice at the back of my head has taken on the other, more positive side. There is a lot of optimism in everything I do, and even in the face of the darkest and worst mishaps, I somehow found a way to really see the brighter side of the fact.

There is just that quiet confidence in me now, that my life ahead is going to absolutely fantastic. I know, things are going to change.

Today marks the 26th month PX and I have been together.

I love you, my dear. I know for sure, that you are the one.

Yesterday evening I had a short business review and consultation session with my business mentor - and through the session we actually identified and realised that one of the main issues that might be causing my delayed success is because I am not affirming myself regularly enough…

Or to put it in another way - While I know in a general direction where I’m heading, I don’t have the exact vision of what my future is, and I don’t yet believe that it is going to happen.

I took time today to stop focusing on the present, and really dream about what is possible in my life one year down the road. I really like what’s coming ahead of me.

When the “why” is strong enough, the “how” doesn’t matter.

I’ve decided to restart this blog - because things in life have changed a pretty lot since the last time I remember writing a blog entry here, and I felt I ought to start documenting my life once again, since a life worth living is always worth recording.

First, I’ve been busy, really really busy these months, now that I have a full time job doing IT support for a travel agency. Its been a good experience for me, being my first real full time job… not because it is paying me big bucks, but because of how it has changed the way I look at time.

I am still not yet where I want to be financially, or in terms of the character and person I want to be, but these days I can feel the change. I’ve been looking at what life is like - 1 year, 5 years and 10 years down the road, and I’m crafting my life today to make sure it goes in the direction I want it to be.

Its terribly uncomfortable what I have decided to put myself through - and its also exciting. Heh.

More details tomorrow.