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A couple of events happened yesterday - some were great, and some were not as exciting.

One, in particular, is about this phone call I received on my way back from work. It was from this lady from a new cruise company. I have happily assisted her when she called the first time to do a survey on my holiday plans. Then she goes on to say there is a gift and needs me to go to their office to collect it.

I told her I was busy, and I will not make time for it. So she called me again yesterday to invite be down to collect my gift.

We chatted for a while, and I insisted that I will not make time for it. (Frankly, I have nothing against her, but if I had spare time, I’d rather be catching up on my sleep!)

At a point in the conversation, I remember asking “I’m not interested in the gift, so why should I meet you?”

Guess what she said? “Cos it’s my job ma!”

Inside, I was immediately thinking like “Its not as if I care about YOUR job!”

She was really persistent… and very VERY annoying - and she could do better in persuasion skills.

In the end, I had to tell her (in a somewhat frustrated tone) “I don’t want to talk to you, so please don’t call me again, okay?”

She hanged up without saying a word.

Anybody who has known me for a while know I don’t “flare up” so easily. In fact, yesterday was the first time in my life I really told someone off over the phone.

Thinking about it now, I still I don’t regret what I did. I admit I could have handled it in a more relaxed manner though.

I respect her ability to be so persistent, but also really sorry for her for not recognizing the broken record technique (being a tele-sales person), and for being my first “victim”. Heh.

Have you handled instances like this? Do you think that matters can always be resolved happily, or do some people just deserve some harder words?

Yesterday I had a short business review with my mentor - and I really appreciate him for his time and advice.

Frankly, things are not going as well as it is supposed to be - I’m still not doing enough to make sure things are moving the way it needs to be.

In our short discussion, I realised again that I have in a sense “lost the dream” once again.

I’d admit, its very easy to lose focus when you have a regular 9am to 6am job. Afterall, its 9 hours of of your life everyday - a third of your life spent in a boring cubical.

Life is also full of distractions. Recently I had tonnes of them.

Last week, my computer fan messed up - and I had to send it back to IBM. When it came back, after some minor software updates, the operating system just refused to load. Spent the whole Sunday formatting it… and then it crashed again. Formatted again… and yesterday I almost lost my entire partition of data (all my data). Good thing it was recovered.

It doesn’t feel excellent to be surviving on total 6 hours of sleep for the last 2 days and knowing you won’t be really sleeping soundly until the weekend.

But I think I need to get back in focus. Daryl asked me yesterday - if I can guarantee a I’ll get $80,000 if I show 30 plans from now till the coming WLS, will there be a problem doing it?

I’m just not focusing on the right things recently.

Things will get better today.

I realised today why I haven’t been as profitable as I want to be in the businesses I am running. I am not putting enough heart into the business.

Getting someone to buy a product from you is not about “Oh, I want to make money.” Its about knowing that the product will really help the person.

Today I received an email at work, telling me that one of my colleagues has passed away due to cancer. I don’t know this colleague - we never met, we never chatted, but something struck me inside. I recall a workshop I have attended some time back, saying that cancer is very close to heart - 3 of 10 Singaporeans die of cancer.

I realise what an business profit driven a**hole I’ve been. To know you have something on hand that can help people live a better live, and yet not be promoting it - I think I’m really not doing what I am responsible to do.

I don’t wish to have ANYBODY close to me to suffer the same fate as my colleague. NOBODY. That is a decision I have made. I NEED to promote supplementation because I know it is essential.

Wow. I just attended a N21 business preview today at Suntec, and man, it was really one of the best previews I’ve attended so far! There was a change in the presentation slides, and everything was like *exactly the way it feels in my heart*.

Following that we continued on with a leaders meeting which was also AWESOME!

I’m so fired up man!

Since I started work 3 months ago, I haven’t really had the time for myself - to clear up my room and do housekeeping of everything I had like my computer files, and notes. Today, with a day of medical leave, I managed to at least know where things are put (it’ll probably take two weekends to finish clearing!) so that I can slowly take steps to clear out the mess.

I’ve heard from one of the N21 CDs that it is important to keep organised so that you can get your tasks done, but not let keeping organised be something that will take tonnes of time - I think that’s true and really need to change myself a little.

I used to be a real stinge when it comes to organising my room - everything has to be right where they need to be, but being busy really keeps me from spending time cleaning up. I just felt it has gone a little too much on the other end and it is affecting my productivity.

I like the security and confidence of knowing where I have put my things, and knowing that a hard drive crasy will not destroy my precious computer files.

Cleaning up is good.

I do! I’m having one now… and I just felt mine wasn’t blue - mine is horribly stinky black. My alarm went off at 7am, and I snoozed until 7:20am, and had to drag myself out of bed, wash up, iron my working attire, and get out of home before 7.50am.

Then I had to squeeze in that sardine packed MRT train for 40 minutes, travel to the city, rush through my breakfast and then rush up to my workplace to face people I don’t particularly like to face on a sleepy Monday morning.

Get this right (and I won’t try to be diplomatic here)… THIS FEELING TOTALLY STINKS! I hate it! I hate my job. I hate doing this today, and I don’t want to do this for 40 years to come!

I will remember this feeling - to propel me forward and build my N21 business! 1 year from now, I will be sleeping LATE on Mondays.

My ticker has started. Has yours?

Normally, people are exceptionally happy on Friday, work people - I mean. Afterall, what’s coming is a weekend where they can relax and sleep in bed.

But this Friday, I’m not… because I just realized that over the busy past few days, I haven’t got any results. I’ve not attained my goals for the week! So, this weekend I’ll have to work extra hard.

Yikes.

Oh well, let’s learn from this week. Getting less sleep for the whole of next week (to catch up on my progressive goals) is still better than having to drag myself to work for the rest of my life!

Talking about sleep - this is something I need to address. I really need to change my home working environment a bit, so I don’t go into “get a nap first” mentality every night. Hate it. My naps always go on for 5 hours. Argh!

For the past two days since the session with my business mentor, I really spent time just listening to happy music and dreaming more, and to be frank, I am really fascinated at the miracles that turned up in front of my face.

Is there science in this? I am not sure, but that thing about The Secret really works - the law of attraction. Your world will feel different to you when you walk out smiling and thinking of the great things in life, as opposed to the unhappy worries.

Because of this, I can also feel that the little voice at the back of my head has taken on the other, more positive side. There is a lot of optimism in everything I do, and even in the face of the darkest and worst mishaps, I somehow found a way to really see the brighter side of the fact.

There is just that quiet confidence in me now, that my life ahead is going to absolutely fantastic. I know, things are going to change.

Today marks the 26th month PX and I have been together.

I love you, my dear. I know for sure, that you are the one.

Yesterday evening I had a short business review and consultation session with my business mentor - and through the session we actually identified and realised that one of the main issues that might be causing my delayed success is because I am not affirming myself regularly enough…

Or to put it in another way - While I know in a general direction where I’m heading, I don’t have the exact vision of what my future is, and I don’t yet believe that it is going to happen.

I took time today to stop focusing on the present, and really dream about what is possible in my life one year down the road. I really like what’s coming ahead of me.

When the “why” is strong enough, the “how” doesn’t matter.