Watch your thoughts, for it becomes your destiny.

I’m still awake – and its 2am. Have a strained neck, and can’t lie down in bed without feeling the pain. Gosh. Guess I have to wait till I get really tired before I knock myself out.

I was reading some of my old journal entries. Its interesting to realise how much my thinking has changed these past 5 years. Of course, then, it was not a blog. It was a secret Yahoo email account which only I knew about. In there, many of the words which I used were quite “colorful”, and very blunt.

Heh. Anonymity.

What’s more interesting, is how one thought can change a person’s destiny. Check this out.

Here’s one paragraph which I wrote on 13 June 2004, and that was before I was even metriculated into NUS.

“… I really don’t know why I am going to NUS for… If you ask me, I’m not excited about my studies at all. Serious. I don’t care about my studies. Well, I know without a degree I will not get a good job, but… what job are you talking about? I’m not going to be the regular “job” person.”

Well well. Dream really came true eh? I guess there are some decisions I have made very much earlier in life which really influenced my way of thinking for good. And as what the famous quote says:

“Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.”

This quote makes so much truth and sense now eh?

Interestingly, I started school, and stayed on and finished 2 years of studies before I decided to leave. Why? Because firstly I had no bloody guts, and secondly school has this thing called “orientation” and “CCAs” that acts like an anesthetic, and brainwashes people to take the pain out of reality.

Not that they are bad things, but they just shake you off your original thoughts and make you feel better, and “accepted”, so you stay on.

… and when that finally wears out, people screeeeeeam.

I know, not very good general advice for people about to start their school term. Well, that is my perception and my truth, and you don’t have to accept it. Everybody’s “truth” is different.

But of course, had I not stayed for 2 years, I wouldn’t have met PX, which means I wouldn’t be who I am now. So we all know what is the “return on investment” for the university tuition fee.

Okay, I’m starting to blabber rubbish. Going to knock myself out.